Thirteen years ago, I walked into the ER for my overnight shift as a nervous new doctor. By sunrise, my entire life had changed—though I wouldn’t fully understand how until much later.
I was 26, fresh out of medical school, still learning how to stay calm when alarms screamed and blood hit the floor. That night was already loud and chaotic when paramedics rushed in with a crash victim report that sucked the air out of the room.
Two gurneys were covered in white sheets.
The third held a three-year-old girl with wide, frightened eyes and a dark seatbelt bruise across her chest.
She didn’t cry. She stared. Like someone who had already learned the world could vanish without warning.
Her parents were gone before the ambulance arrived.
I wasn’t assigned to stay with her. But when a nurse tried to lift her from the gurney, she grabbed my arm with both hands and clung to me like I was the only solid thing left.
“My name’s Avery,” she whispered. “I’m scared. Please don’t leave me.”
I should have handed her off. Instead, I sat down.
Someone found a sippy cup. Someone else brought a picture book about a lost bear who finds his way home. Avery made me read it again and again because the ending was happy. She needed proof that happy endings still existed.
At one point, she touched my badge and said, “You’re the good one here.”
I stepped into a supply closet afterward just to breathe.
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